The first time I wrote something for the world was in 2017. It should have been terrifying but then not so much. Because I barely had any audience to read. Now, fast forward to five years later, I have an audience, I have expectations to reach, and confidence to keep intact. Today, I have got something that I care about. So I am much more terrified now than when I started.

It also wasn’t that easy when I wrote for the first time, on this very blog. I had to keep at it no matter how little audience I have. The days kept passing and I eventually grew as a writer. Compared to the way I write now, I was a terrible writer in the beginning. Maybe not terrible, I was being too harsh on myself. But I definitely didn’t know the things that I know now and it obviously reflected in my writing. Now, I can write almost perfectly without Grammarly. Haha.

My first blog article was written on Mar 16th, 2017. I still remember how quickly everything happened. One moment I have the thought and the next moment I was writing it. And published then and there. Without any overthinking. I am kinda proud of myself for being so quick that day. Otherwise, I would have taken days pondering over it just to end up not doing it at all. Because I had zero knowledge about it. Let it be writing or creating a blog. And if I had backed out from it, I wouldn’t be here now enjoying the time of my life.

Then there were several lessons that shaped me into the writer I am today. I see the progress I made. I ain’t the writer I was on that Mar 16th and tomorrow, I won’t be the same writer I am today. Because yesterday I also thought I’m not a poet, but I caught myself writing a poem today.

Learning has been a massive part of my journey. I am never ashamed of my work as a rookie writer because it signifies the hard work I’ve put into becoming a better one. After all, that’s what we all do. Try and be better.

I thought I wasn’t a writer. But what a fool I am to think so. I am a writer. I probably always carried a part of me that is a writer. I just needed time to figure it out. Once I did, I know in my heart that I have always been a writer.

I love proving myself wrong. In these five years, I have proved myself wrong several times. I am not a writer — ERR! You are.

I am not a poet — ERR! You are.

I can’t write a book — ERR! You can.

Every time I proved myself to be wrong, I stepped up. And I’d like to consider that as my success. I’ve learned quite a lot in my journey and it doesn’t feel right to not share it all with other writers. I’m actually itching to share everything I know. That’s the crown I want to wear.

Let’s see how my first time mentoring will turn out. Until then, you keep at it. Keep writing.

Cheers,

Nikki.

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